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Poem: How I Fell for you

How I Fell For You by Olivia Martin


You lied, cheated and tore up my mind

Another like you? Not too hard to find. 

The opposite of my type should I say

Even though talking to you was the highlight of my day


I should hate you 

But I want you

Your immature and took me for a fool

Why do I want you


I walk by you as if you didn’t play a major role in my screwed up mind

I want to punch you

I want to hit you

I want you to feel the pain I feel every time I try to give a kind guy a chance


But I can’t 

Every time I see them, I see you, no lie

And not being able to tell you this eats me alive


You lied to me & were selfish 

You knew exactly what to say that night when I called you in a bliss.

My lips are marked with your name in my mouth

I miss it so much but know I can’t have it


I see you in public and want to run to you, arms wide open claiming your mine

When I see you look away or pull your hat down, the inside of me dies.

I have one vid of us, at a wedding

Foreshadowing? Who knows. But the way you looked at me is pierced in my mind, the joy was spreading.


I hate your country music, your feminine side, when you wear headbands & the way you tore apart your family

Why can’t I stop thinking about you? Or worse, stop reliving our cherished moments which I was so unsure


Your humor excited me and so did us sneaking around

“It’s not my fault I like everything you” is what you told me one night 

My smile hid under a mask as I continued to put up a good fight


I look up at the moon and say goodnight to you

Hoping your saying it back even though I already knew the answer to that 

I trusted YOU with my whole heart

You took everything I said seriously and cared about what I had to say


I was in lust, only to realize you would


abandone me


left me there to die

Why do I wish to hear your voice and hear you cry 



So why, oh why, are you the exception when you hurt me so bad while I was so young with a wrong perception?


Yet I want you

I want an apology 

I want respect 

I want to be put first

I want to be kissed

I want to be loved

By you


But why not tell you before?

Why not say this when you told me you felt this way towards me?

Because you already decided our fate

Without even taking me on a date


I guess your right we want different things

You want a truck, a wife and a bag full of dreams

But I want success, a family, and whatever else it seems


So therefore I did not tell you

What I wanted to say, is that okay?

I know I was very cold to you on that very warm day


It was all just an act to make me not like you

I wish I could take it all back 

And see if things could be different and new


Sometimes I replay your recordings to me before going to bed

So close yet so far listening to everything you said.

It’s not our time, it may never be 

At least I can have some peace knowing I told you 

How I fell for some guy without a degree


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